Now that I am a college graduate, I thought I'd start my blogging up again! Why not have my first post be all about my college experience....right? :)
I'm not going to be one of those college students that says that they blinked and college passed by their eyes.
To be completely honest, the first two years of college were a nightmare. I hated Olivet, I hated the people at Olivet, and I became angry at God for putting me in this place where I felt so alone and discouraged. I had friendships that failed. I had professors let me down. I realized how incredibly dark the world can be, despite being in the "Olivet bubble". It was two years of my life that were quite scary and frustrating. I do not think there was a day that went by that I didn't comtemplate leaving. However, the last two years have shown me that I am SO glad I didn't listen to the voice in my head. Let's be honest, sometimes the voice in my head can be wrong. And lame. And discouraging.
First week of junior year was quite the struggle. With the weirdest roommate on the planet, I was wondering how I could possibly make it another two years at Olivet. But in that very first week of junior year, I became friends with four of the best girls I could possibly know. I truly believe God has placed each one of them in my life for life. The late night heart to hearts, funny inside jokes, and countless card games we have played have shown me what true friendship is. It also showed me how to live life in community with other people. They are honestly the best part of college for me.
Now the last two years of college was not always flowers and sunshine. But compared to the first two years, it was a relaxing walk in the park. I began to see how God had a purpose for every college experience - even during the first two years. I had the amazing opportunity to mature and grow as an adult, which was such a weird concept to me. I had people give up on me. I said goodbye to friendships that I realized were unhealthy, and I realized that it's okay to say goodbye. It's okay to let go.
Somehow I was able to graduate with honors and receive my Bachelors in Elementary Education. I know that I am supposed to be a teacher, it is just the where and when that is up in the air. This is another situation where I am putting my trust in Christ, I know everything will work out.
So now here I am thinking about life after graduation. In "my plan" I had a job all planned out and knew what I was doing after I received that diploma. In "my plan" I was going to find my future husband at college and be thinking about marriage by this point. In "my plan" I was going to be significantly richer than I am right now. But God has other plans, plans that are better for me despite all of my uncertainty. Isaiah 55:8 says "For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways." Even though my way might seem like the most logical to me, I know that in the end Christ's path for my life is better than anything I could imagine. It's just the waiting and trusting that is the struggle!
These words gave me hope, and I hope they do the same for you: Cast all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you.